Before I Die...

There were a few things that my mind wandered to on my long journey home today…as I drove in the light and in the dark…as I thanked trucks politely giving me way, and as I gave way to rude and fast drivers shoving themselves up my arse…

I thought about my life.

About my destination. And what I would have accomplished should I reach THE FINISH LINE or THE END(if you must). Would I have lived? What if I didn’t even make it there? What was I okay to have sacrificed? Where was I going?

What did I want to accomplish?

That’s the question…How do you measure your life, if you don’t even have a ruler to measure it with?

My Bucket list should be something private, but I’ve decided to publicize it…because of recent events. Recent events have made me realise that I may die before my time. I am a very naïve person.

A few days ago, I opened my door to a man I didn’t know…I could see the darkness in his eyes, but for some reason I couldn’t find the words or the way to chase him out. If I ever looked into the face of death, that would be the face…as he said to me: “What star sign are you? You look so gorgeous! Are both your parents Asian, because your eyes are so big? Where you from? If I had a modelling agency, you would be my model.” He was dirty. Hungry. Hollow. And…unknown. I was so stunned…and afraid…and….that’s why my eyes were so big!!

I almost died.

Thankfully my helper later saw what I saw and comforted me. She said to me, that even though I am naïve…even though I see the best in all people…I shouldn’t worry about myself, because God will protect me.  Man…I make Jesus work very hard, I thought. His love, knows no bounds.

So this is my bucket list, should I seem like I need a SOS or a rescue…or…a ruler or a sjambok or…an accountability person, I am looking for you to help me:

Before I die….

• -          I want to have left a legacy for my unborn children
• -          I want to have made a positive difference to at least one person’s life
• -          I want to meet Pierre Hermé in his element, and hold a conversation with him in French
• -          I want to personally thank the people who have made a big difference in my life apart from my family, and close friends: As at today…these people include: T.Harv Eker, Blair Singer, Success Resources (specifically Veronica and Richard Tan, and Douglas – yes! Douglas ;)) and Y.M.
• -          I want to personally witness the magic of: the Piano Guys (find them on YouTube:What Makes YOU! BEaaauuutiFULLL!!)
• -          I want to have had a conversation with Katherine Jenkins and Ellen DeGeneres and Oprah
• -     I want to have met Mr Project Life Mastery
• -          I want to build a Property Empire
• -          I want to be a beautiful person on the inside
• -          I want to die while chasing my dream
• -          I want to master the art of patience
• -          I want to be dancing through my life like nobody’s watching
• -          I want to be married to the man of my dreams
• -          I want to be able to ride a bike.
• -          I want to be invited to work for Google
• -          I want to build my own school in South Africa…to inspire, create and empower.
• -          I want to be the kind of person who God would happily invite to Heaven.
• -          I want to have looked after the people who have looked after me…and made them proud to be the parents to Donna Chiang.

      

      Seems a little much? Yeap…I know. I know these things are true, because as I drove… it brought tears to my eyes. When I die, I want to still be able to feel. Feeling, appreciating, living.

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Dear God…

Thank You for always being there for me. For always protecting me, even when I don’t seem like I deserve Your love. Thank You for blessing me with so much abundance – for my home, my family, my friends, my leaders, my health, my happiness, my church, my purpose.

Please have mercy on me. Please let me at least accomplish one of the above WANTS before I die.

I ask You to protect me from evil and lead me out of temptation. I ask you to have Patience when I can’t see the warning signs. I ask you to open my eyes in those times and hold my hand if You must. I ask you to help me find my humility to listen to what You have to say, even when I don’t want to…Help me hear what You have planned for me. Humility to receive, especially when I become too proud to ask. Please give me the wisdom to know when to shine my light and when to dim it…I don’t want to blind anyone.

Thank You for listening to my prayer. May Your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. May your words always be the light to my path.

Forever, and ever.

Amen.

With Love

Your Child

Donna

Ps. Thank you for being my Heavenly Father! J I hope Heaven is a cosy place, because I would like to book a room. Not now though. Dibs on Window facing!